Friday, February 22, 2008

100th Post!!


This is my 100th post in this blog!!

I hardly remember what had trigger me to start blogging. But somehow.. i managed to have 100 posts in my blog and most importantly.. i think i managed to maintain the spirit of this blog so far (Nothing but craps), though im not sure whether this is something to be proud of.

Anyway, im gonna talk about my work again, for those who are not quite interested in office politics or an engineer's life, well, you guys can go to friendster or youtube now, bye!


By end of this month, there'll be at least 6 engineers from the department im working at, be leaving the company. This is already more than 10% of the total headcount in the department. It does make sense because the department has the lowest score(most negative feedback) in the latest employee survey carried out 2 months ago. All the bosses are pretty concern (upset) about this, everyone of them has been busy trying to understand why the people in this so called "most heavily invested" department are the same group of people who are so pissed off about the company. Well... they should, because in the survey result, the average score for the managers leadership looks a lot uglier than their paychecks.

Well.. what went wrong? I'm not about to comment about the big picture and the company's direction, trust me, most of the engineers doesn't give a damn about this. 90% of the engineers only concern about their own career path and pay rise, perhaps this is big part of the problem. We do not have many "believers" in the office, not everybody is so engaged with the company goal, may be because it doesn't really affect us much in our working life.

I go on and list down what are the things i like about my job, and what are the thing i hate about my job:

Plus+
  1. Average pay in my company is quite high compare to it peer from the same region.
  2. Learning cycle in my company is very short, I'm able to learn many things in short period of time.
  3. I get to interact with some very smart Engineers(on and off site) day in day out.
  4. I get to travel once in a while.
  5. I have full ownership on my project.
  6. I have a group of very friendly peer in the office.

Minus -
  1. The management is trying to implement a lot of nonsense rule. eg, no camera phone in office.
  2. Travel policy amended to cut cost, no more allowance.
  3. There's always insufficient resources for every project... like we have 10 cups but only 8 coaster.
  4. Office accessories shortage, always need to hunt for A4 papers, pencil, pen..etc. We don't even have hand towel in the washroom, unless we have visitors from HQ.
  5. A lot of decision is made without gathering any opinions from the employees, not until they had enforced it. (eg, Christmas Holiday replaced to new year eve, and employee need to sign a form to "agree" to this decision.)
  6. Is always not safe to speak up in my company. One very ridiculous example: i remember during a feedback session hosted by HR, the HR manager promised the group that every comment we made would be kept between HR and ppl among the group, our bosses would never have a clue about who back stabbed them in front of HR. So everybody went on and made some very tuff comments. Turns out... those comments not only being consolidated to a power point slide and presented to all the managers... every comment would end with the person name who made.

To be fair to the HR, nothing bad actually happen to the group of people who gave negative feedback. However this betrayal has cost their trust to the management. They'll be no more negative feedback in person from the group of engineers anymore.

oh well... is not too bad isn't need? i managed to think of 6 "plus" in 5 minutes..seems like im still okay with my job... good to know...
however.. I found out... all the negative feedback has nothing much to do with career path.. why people is leaving? With my very shallow mindset, i could only think of one thing...the negetive feedback loop in my company has broke down...

We are too result and goal oriented, until we do not spend much effort(sincere) to listen to the working group. We have a lot of feedback session but most of it started and ended with silence, because every negative feedback would come back with some very defensive statement from the management... The more you complain, you are only making yourself look like a cry baby.

What i think is, we are not a bunch of people who are asking for too much, we just want to be heard. yes, the survey result is pretty ugly but that is because we do not get much chances to really express our thoughts without having to worry about our bosses reaction to it. How does it help if the management always react defensively on every negative feedback we give? Why organize a feedback session at the 1st place? Asa result, we prefer just to keep quiet... and waiting for our time to leave.. and that's doesn't solve the problem.

And Finally, the HR. My understanding of HR people is, they are a group of ppl who listen to the employee's feedback and try to maintain the balance between employee welfare and company insterest. But, what the HR of the company of mine been doing is try to brain wash the employee to accept things that benefits to the company interest. Understand that company interest would eventually link with the employee benefit, again, at the end of the day, not everybody is as committed as the highly paid directors or managers sitting in the room, most of the people doesn't give a damn about the revenue and PBT of the company... all they can see is their payslip and the annual leave balance every month. Is not a good atitude to have in the company but do accept the fact, we do need ppl like this in order to run an organization. So please also take care of their feelings.

Sorry about this long post.. i need to let it out here... because remember?.. is not safe to speak up in my company.. not even to the HR. At least im not the only one who has this impression....

Sunday, February 03, 2008

乱。。。



又是挑战中文的时候了。。。

最近周围的一切都好像乱七八糟的。。。 刚刚捱过一段黑暗期。。
黑暗案烈:

1。 在美国入境证过期, 惊动总公司人事部。。。
2。 钱包在地铁被扒。。。
3。 期待已久的巴里岛之旅被逼取消。。。不想讲是为什么。
4。 车坏。
5。 又是车坏。
6。 工作的部门快要被解散。
7。 同事的车坏掉,请半天假救他,被老板以为是我的车又坏。。。"NGAM3" 高我半粒钟。。。 他说:TF,车又坏了吗? 改次车有什么问题,一次过把它好,不必每次要分开修.. ” (鸡拜! 谁不懂?每个像你那么有钱?起我的薪水啦, 刁!)


果然是福无双至,祸不单行! 看来猪年的尾巴对我不是很fit! 幸好鼠年要来了。。 希望不错的事情会发生吧!

btw... 三月好像又要去美国了。。 这次会一个人去。。 肯定西北sien...

对了。。。 差点忘记。。 祝大家新年快乐,心想事成!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

damn...

5 weeks has passed, what am i doin here? i have a bad feeling now... very familiar feeling... 3 more weeks to go... and im really unsure about what's going to happen.

Staying in US is a whole new experience to me, people here are generally polite and helpful. Back in M'sia, i always been wondering why ppl got heat up so easily, but at here, is a totally different situation, everybody seems to be smilling and greeting each other. I think this is something we need to learn from the ang mo, and i believe it wouldn't cost us much to do this, would it?

And of coz, every place has it own dark side, the one thing i really don't get it is... In US, we are suppose to pay huge amount of tip to the person who serve us, it doesn't matter if you are dinning in restaurent, hotel room service, or even when you call a cab... like it or not, we need to pay extra 15%-20% of the total amount as tip. Aren't the service charge is already been included in the price?

During my 1st week at here, i remember dinning in a Taiwanese restaurent... my bill was about 30 bucks and i placed an extra 3 bucks for the tips... and the auntie came back and told me...

Auntie : 'Your tip is too less, there's no way we can earn enuff money if everybody tip as less as you do'

Fee : "oh... sorry... here another 2 bucks, this will do it?"

Auntie : "ya... thanks"

fee : ^.^"

5 dollars tip for a 30 dollars meal... That was by far, the most expansive cultural shock i got...

so.. a waitress in US... could easily be earning more than an Engineer in M'sia... damn...

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Snow!!!

Asean ppl like me only could see snows through the TV, or from some fancy postcard... or from magazine... but never in naked eye..

guess what? Went to Lake tahoe last weekend...


Is a lake.. not sea..


nice tree....

Nice Background for photo shooting..

and...


SNOW!!!!!



erhum.. not really... is only autumn now...
"Snow Scene" - The Making

Monday, October 08, 2007

三藩市aka 旧金山



好久没有写中文了。。


会写一遍比较短的。应该不会太久吧。。


到了美国的第一个周末, 随便选了一个地方去。。 看看yahoomap。。最靠近的应该是三藩市吧。 在公司print 了一张地图,跟另一位同事开车北上,向似有似无的目标前进。(哇, 中文有够烂!)


Ok... that's it for the chinese, i'll do better next time..


Without any GPS .. all we had was this..


a purely text driving direction, and 0% tolerence for mistake. We tot it was sufficient... we were wrong...


However, with some help from some friendly and helpful ang mo, we made it to all our destinatios. Not to be bias, but you coulnd't imagine a city like San Francisco has a road traffic system which 2000% less complex and more intuitive than KL. Even the chances of getting loss in Seremban are much higher. Some food for thought for our government?



Anyway, San Francisco is a sunny yet windy city, because of its location at the bay area, wind are stong and kampung boys like me had to wear a thick jacket under the Sun.




I was freezing...



I felt like a gal the minute saw this uncle...



I Dunno how to make this post look very fun and excited. But some of the scene and places here are really quite nice to hang out. However, if i wanna call my self a blogger, i will need to give my best shot to write some beautiful descriptions on the picture i taken.


Golden gate park, Good Ah!


Palace of Art Place- Fit Ah!



San- Francisco Bay side- Syok Ah!


Fisherman Wharf- Most happening place in City, Dim ah!

Sunset view of Golden gate bridge - Good and Fit ah!



And you get nothing but crabs for dinner! - Sai lik ah!


Do you think this post can helps to attract more tourist to San Francisco?